sHiNiNg.rAy.oF.LiGht.

2006-07-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

hey blogggggieeeee, i'm back!(seldom update cos of my pt work , drivin, stuff ..) Last wk, was the science camp for me. It was fun, adventurous. ha. played ice-breakers games, which apparently i dun know much abt em till now,.. Haa. hmm.. wet water games were a common trait among those games baa. also, went on an amazin race ard sG! checked into aloha resorts whereby during the nite, there was fright nite at the old cGH.. yepzzz.. e highlight was SP nite. My sp was pretty fine, glad to be able to make frens with. went on a cruise cum dinner ard SG with our SP! my second time actually on a cruise! bt my first time having a meal on a cruise with someone ! lolz. aft dat, went club momo , when i felt so shagged n tired. in e past, clubbing used to raelli turn me on! i would look forward to mambo every wed, askin my frens whether they wld like to tag along. well now, these stuff doesnt interest me anymore, n i am no longer addicted to drinkingggg , clubbing any more!! hmm// well, i jus sat there leh, so unlike me haa, aft dat, went back nus lt to slp , n e next day, we break camp. i will upload the pics asaP!

yest was wcfinals!! italy vs france!!! i've always supported 3 key teams frm the start: brazil, italy n germany! n i am realli glad that italy won !!! penalties were used to determine to outcome of the game n though it was unfair , bt the players seem so shagged aft 120 mins dat i dun think they r able to score anymore goals. went holland v to watch with my army peep, wore blue leh.. italy supporter ma!! haa, e atmosp was realli gd at the hv coffee shop. alive n loudd with cheers n boos whenever a goal was abt to be conceded . i am so so tired..... rite now..... as i am typin this entry..

service by rev dr robb thompson on last wkend was raelli inspiring n relevant to most of us in society. In society, its crucial n necessary to build relationships with ppl ard u. our frens ard us mus prize intergrity above relationships n relationships r magnetics- as they pull us closer to our divine destiny ! Our frens mus be sowers too, in e right soil as our lives r determined by our own giving/seed. its a mus to invest or be ard with e right ppl as they will have a gd future for us n for em tooo...... .......zzz continue later!!

2006-06-24T10:16:00.000+08:00

hey, finished my p/t job stint at Nera (jtc) yest on the 23rd of june. It has been exactly 3 months since i began to work in this elec company back in mar 22. i could still remember my colleagues, superiors teasin me abt my military card.. cos i haven officially ord-ED yet i have alreadi started work.times r gd, with more temps coming in, we begin to have a huge gang of temps ! went oout to ktv, bbq, outings.. together as a grp, its a gd chance to know each other well esp while we r tgt in the same coy.

haa, though my work is kinda mono, lifeless n borin, its part n parcel of a temp job i guess. We r meant to do the filin, keying of data, checkin of accts, cos its e simplest one can do armed merely with an A level cert. My superior, finance vp was indeed kind n humble, a very approachable guy to communicate with across all subjects. He had to rush off to norway(i think) yest early aft, n he actually took the effort to come to my desk, shaked my hand, n wished me well before he went off. said goodbyes to my direct in charge, she's a pleasant lady, veri meticulous n conscientious in her work. She treated me to lunch on wed n i greatly appreciate it. I promised to come back again durin my sem hols! haha, also some of the rest of the accts officers, n the recep/ lolz. she's rather funni person, always entertainin us with her jokes n behaviours. well, seems that we r gone, another batch of ladies have come to take over our duties. one of the managers said that gals r more 'xi xin' den guys , n dat's y they have decided to employ more ladies den guys.. haa wad crap .. my under study came yest n i had to teach her everythin frm scratch. well, i mus say i can teach well leh. i prepare my notes , wrote everythin nicely for her before teachin her the stuff. She even said that i could be a gd teacher in e future! haa, ya lor, being a teacher was my dream since like dunno when, shld be in sec sch. n she asked me somethin dat ponders me for a while alreadi , why dun u have a gf? i was rather taken aback by dat qn bt yea, its true, i have asked myself many times too. i think its jus not the right time ba, or perhaps fate, the right cinderella hasnt arriveed yet..

i think i will miss the ppl at nera, the environment also, n the slackin times we had ! lolz. anyway, off to science camp next wk frm mon to fri! , shld be enjoyable leh, better be worth of my money spent!

jtc ayer rajah:

e entrance to nera elec coy

pic taken frm the smokin pt, slackin area:p

e passageway, long n windin rd. walked a 'thousand miles' across this path

my desk

the way to my dept.

2006-05-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i updated this blog of mine. work work work. so boring ! hehe// on sat , went to nus science fac tea session. It was so long took abt 2 hrs or so. Listening to the proFs n dOcs talkin abt the sub realli puts me to slp man.. lOl.. aft dat, there was a mini interaction between the lecturers n us, freshies. signed up for the sci fac orientation camp, sounds interesting to me . Aft dat, a grp of gals came by n asked me take photo leh haha.. they were frm a groomin activities club i think or catwalk??!! haha forgotten.. arrgh wasted.. shld have gotten e pic frm em too but well signed up for it too.. ha can earnn cca pts leh.. quite a surprise saw niger, kian sing, edwin n wj.. went town with em aft dat.. its realli nice to catch up with e gd old times although we aren't in e same platoons aft all.. best of luck to em! we r going to be in e same fac at least.

later, met up with my colleagues to go for a bbq at someones penthouse. i mus realli thank God for helping me to get this job(in mar) 3 wks be4 i officially ordeD. God provides my needs, esp financially as i am able to get pay too. Glory to Thee. i think i wana quit realli soon cos of my orientation programmes coming up leh.. but well have to c how will e job be like later.. well, bbq not bad ar.. eat laugh play jokes ha took some pics too.. will start posting pics le to liven my bloggie up.. hehe..

mi n shan

e temps of nera! hunks n babes ! :p

e gals.

first singapore rally attended

2006-05-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

Been out for the past wk aft work, watching movies n jus chilling at coffee clubs. On Thursday, aft work, mi, wenjin n kavan (my colleagues) decided to go to cck park and listen to the SDA rally. It was wet n humid as it rained slightly in the evening. The field was wet n muddy but it did not dampen my nationalistic spirit deep down in my heart. We stood all e way to the front so as to gain a better view of the party leaders. It was really hot n stuffy considering that we stood from 7pm to 10pm n I almost fainted. Mr Chiam was the star speaker that night n loud cheers accompanied his grant arrival to the park. Its amazing at his age, he still speaks well and able to captivate the audience with his usual jibes at the PAP. The audience was occasionally fired up whenever CPF, money reserve and bread-and-butter issues were brought up. Next was Mr Steve Chia. Well, this man has a huge gang of gung-ho supporters. People cheered whenever he promised things n welfare policies, especially when he gave his hp number away! Haha. Really admire this man for wad he did, brave man. Hmm.. there were a couple of other speakers between them, n it was really entertaining to hear em speak. The crowd is huge and many were there maybe because of curiosity and interest.

Some pics taken courtesy of kav.

wkends!

2006-04-23T10:31:00.000+08:00

went for my 4th drivin lesson yest, completed stage 1. I got reminded by my parents to continue e lessons on a more regular basis so that i will at least get my license by e end of e yr. well, for me, i aint in a hurry to get a license since it isnt realli one of my top priorities in my life yet. During driving, met several of my army camp mates too. pretty coincidental to bump into em. singapore is too small i guess. sometimes i think, what's going to be e fate of 4.2 million ppl in singapore if a bomb realli landed on our tiny weeny island? singapore will be gone overnight , for sure. will e defence forces realli deter the bomb attack?? ha, obviously not unless it has e intelligence n information beforehand. wad crap am i talking. out of pt.

well, i extended my stay in e company i am working in. e pay isnt realli veri high but at least, i have alreadi gotten myself used to e environment i am in, e work n also my colleagues ard. Well, i may be workin all e way till july before uni term starts.. cyA!

mi n my colleague at jtc

2006-04-10T19:17:00.000+08:00

i have since started work. Job title: accounts asst. The job is relatively simple n i am jus lookin for a workin experience n this suits me rather well. hmm.. its quite coincidental, having a fren frm my ns company workin with me. i was thinking today, will i be able to gain better work satisfaction being a MOE relief teacher? besides, my application got approved 2 weeks ago. i am not doing it for e money, but its jus me to try out new stuff when i am able n qualified to do so. Thought of going back to fairfield to ask ard. ah well, maybe leave these thoughts till aft my contract ends..

2006-04-08T09:46:00.000+08:00

oh feel 'liberated' frm e army at last. been great serving the nation. i will definitely encourage u guys/gals to sign on to the SAF. haha. went back camp yest, camp seems so alive with a buzz due to the new enlistment. wanted to talk to my superiors but they seem busy in a meeting..oh well, there will be a chance someday. saw sky ha, poor guy.. he's taking over me.. looked at my workplace, nothing changed, gonna miss it! :p brought nothing back, actually threw away everything.. includin my shoes, boots, towel.. lolz.. dun give a damn.. walked out of e gate, feelin like a free man, realli seems as though i have been in prison for the past 2 yrs 4 months, n i have jus got my identity or a passport to officially scram out of the place. feels great. hope to meet up with my army buddies more often.. esp arthis.. who's kinda stuck in a pretty sad situation.. :P

Some pics taken during my army days..

onli pic taken in my bunk:

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2006-04-07T08:05:00.000+08:00

gg back camp later! today is my official date of ord, collecting my ic later.. in a few hrs time.. haha.. can't believe it. Time really flies since Dec 2003. I have survived for the past 2 yrs 4 months. I have made it out successfully n safely without any mishaps. The learning process aint easy and sufficient but it has sort of given me an idea to wad life can be in the outside working world. I am a winner. To God be the glory!

2006-03-30T19:31:00.000+08:00

been long since i've updated my bloggie.. yepz.. received a appointment letter?! oh, i opened it n it says my official appointment to the ministry of education as a full time sec/jc maths n phy teacher! lolz.. thot i rejected it long ago.. n they sent another letter.. but e money is realli gd, 1.5k per month even while studyin! but well, thot a long while, decided not to venture into the teaching career so early in my life, perhaps aft getting a degree first.. be back!

tue..

2006-03-15T14:33:00.000+08:00

went bugis in e aft to look ard.. thinkin of getting a new hp/wallet/bag/shoes/n a couple of Ts.. but didnt buy any. In e evening, went for a free movie screenin preview. Didnt know of an additional theatre located in Shaw tower, beside Shaw House. e theatre is super ulu, very dark, reminds me of e typical haunted cinema commonly described. cry_wolf, a thriller i guess. twists n turns esp at e end of e show. a little predicatable.

11-13 march

2006-03-13T18:42:00.000+08:00

hi!! was supposed to be on cos duty for sat(11th march)... but well.. thanks to my oc.. was asked to be the officers mess boy instead.. haha.. wad a name.. woke up super early jus to pack breakfast for em..yep.. all throughout e day, i was like a maid in army attire. makin coffee, washing cups, plates, boiling water, cleaning e floor.. doing errands.. oh well.. army life.. full of surprises.. undeniable fact. in e evening, cooked rice for e cateria auntie. helped her to serve food too to e soldiers. my camp was pretty crowded and alive on that sat nite. This is due to the new intake of recruits on 10 march.. so as expected.. all e pcs, ocs, csms, co n rsm, psos were ard in the officers mess. had to be present at all times till quite late of course.. abt 1 plus..

woke up bright n early @ 0530 on 12th march. wanted desperately to get out of this *%#$ camp. went home and got ready to go church. ended ard 2 pm. den headed to nus to meet iv for e open house. wow. was amazed. nus is so lively n its realli very urbanised in there. e students there are so friendly and approachable and cute too.. haha.. reached in time for e bac of life science and mathematics talks. informative and helpful of course. aft dat, went to visit the halls.. kent ridge and shears halls.. one of e newest among e 6 halls(onli 2 yrs old).. rms were small indeed, but every level has a lift, pantry, bathroom, n mess i think.. each hall has a gym, dining area and also a multi-purpose hall.. sounds like a typical army camp.. haha.. o ya.. kent ridge got better looking gals.. aint i right iv? haha.. i'ld love to stay on campus n enjoy interacting with new friends.. roommates.. but well, not realli financially strong yet.. also, my mom sort of discouraged me frm staying in campus before as she's afraid that i would play whole day long.. partying hard.. not studying..aarrrrghhh.. see first lor... turned down another friend's dinner appointment.. was so so tired.. slept ard 3 hours for e past 2 nights.. slept at 8pm on sunday nite..

woke up pretty early today. felt so refreshed and energised! been so long since i have slept for 12 hrs straight. started to prepare for my academic appraisal. met qingkai at ny. i was awed by the changes in my school. previously, e sch looked more like a construction yard( famously known as!! haha) but now.. it looks so much furnished and well-designed.. with tennis courts.. halls..wanted to meet mr neo who was my maths/fmaths teacher. had to get an appraisal for him. we were walking n walkin in this big place, trying to find e staff lounge when i spotted mr neo sitting on e bench wif a grp of students.. oh gosh.. how lucky can i get..but.. he forgotten my name..how sad.. but he knows which class we were frm before.. haha.. he agreed to have an appraisal written for me... feelin elated.. i had completed 2/3 of appraisals needed for my application.. need one more.. but unsure of where i shld get it frm.. aft visiting ny.. me n qk went wisma to walk ard.. hehe... 25 more days to seeing pinK// //.

glass shoes

2006-03-09T15:35:00.000+08:00

oh how i love korean dramas! i've been so crazy abt these lovvy, crying emotional dramas since school days.. haha.. winter sonata.. beautiful days.. all i have watched! I teared lots while watchin this series.. realli emotional at times.. thanks to my blood sis who lent me glass shoes!.. haa.. i have finally finished all 32 episodes of em! e ending is pretty sad.. i jus have to wonder at times, do fate play a huge role in our lives nowadays? Is our life and death really predestined by heaven long before we r born? yea. i guess so. We are all fated to live our lifetime on earth, predestined to marry who we r supposed to and also given a death line to meet. haha. sounds so crappy. But i guess its true aft all. Some kids die so young, even be4 reaching 12 or 13. wad abt infants who die in their mothers' wombs? iSnt that more sad? yea.. well.. feel like getting e next drama series to watch! hmm.. wad shld i get this time..

2006-03-06T13:33:00.000+08:00

didnt had time to update my blog. :p Guess i'm too busy with my uni application and also my tuition. I just submitted my ntu application this afternoon. Need to get a few appraisals as quickly as possible. Thinking of obtaining it frm my jc. Or maybe frm my army camp? haha.wad an irony.

2006-02-19T19:28:00.000+08:00

Been rather busy for e past wk, didnt had much time to update this diary of mine. Last wk, i was attached to tekong to do some stuff over there. The whole experience taught me one very crucial character and dat was leadership. I feel that leaders are not born naturally but leaders arise through learning experiences, hardships and human-to-human relationships. The last factor, e inherent relationships between people is the most significant. I mean, between people of all levels, regardless of status such as commander and men. A worthy leader is one who is able to communicate properly across all levels without much hindrance. Being a sound leader aint very easy of course but in order to gain respect from ur subordinates, one has to give in whenever problems arise. Of course, leaders are not born overnight and i do not blame these people But since you are already given this role to play, might as well play it well ? In a sense, do ur very best to gain respect and also lead by example. I despise leaders who do not lead by example. Totally no respect for them. At times, in order to be a respectable leader, one has to give in a little, sweat a little, or in other words, stoop down to a lower level so as to let ur subordinates feel more at ease. In this way, subordinates will not think so lowly of them but actually become more motivated to work a little harder. A leader plays a manager role such that he ensures that a system that's in place runs well, but most importantly, do not disrupt the system unless its for good. In short, he has to trust his sub-heads that things work out smoothly. Well, i am not a natural-born leader but i know for a fact that i will be a leader of a organisation, whether it be small or big someday. a well-accomplished and competent one. do not doubt me so easily.

The tekong trip reminded me of my bmt days back in 2004. e cookhouse.. e favourite ferry terminal.. e canteen.. my own taurus company..e familiar path to e different outfield campsites. Things haven't realli changed a lot, glad to be back here again to smell e familiar salty air near the river. ha. hmmmmm .. let me think.. 3 more wks to clearing leave! any job recommendationS?? seriously in need of one to pay off my debts..

2006-02-07T18:01:00.000+08:00

yest 060206, i brought back my duffel bag loaded wif my army stuff over e past 2 yrs. OmG! they weren't light at aLL! It felt like a ton to me but i was so glad to bring it home finally.. my sbo.. helmet.. field pack.. As i walked on the path towards camp's gate, i vividly remember how i felt 2 yrs ago.. mi geared in smart4, bald head, carrying my same old duffel bag wif another field pack .. lookin so forlorn n melancholic (bet e rest felt the same!) thinkin desperately 'how did i get my ass here in e first place?' , 'why aint i posted to cmpb or ocs' , 'how am i gonna spend my next 2 yrs in this hellishlookin desolated place' ..haha.. and we marched in step tgt wif e rest of e ppl to our company. so glad. now in 2006, i am finally walkin out of this forsaken pathetic-lookin camp wif feelings of joy and bliss. I mus admit, i might miss this place that has been my 'home sweet home' for e past 2 yrs.. but den again.. i still have another 2 more months to go.. so no worries.. As i walked out yest, met my bmt bud. who was coincidentally posted to e same unit as me. We chatted a while and found out dat he had brought back his stuff in dec! oh man. thot i was e earliest. haha..

Went out todae n jus reached home. cleared my off todae to buy some stuff. when i was out this aft, some young petite-lookin lady came over and did a survey wif me. hehe.. was glad dat i dun look my age at all! "P She asked me whether i was a poly student somemore.. lolz.. lookin young is gd i suppose. When i revealed my real age, she was kinda surprised..haa.. this happened to me several times.. i dun think my dressing is dat childish.. but perhaps its due to other aspects of me. well, its all up to the eyes of the beholder. yepz.. chatted quite long.. seemed as though i had known her before.. :p

chinese new yr!

2006-02-01T15:43:00.000+08:00

xin nian kuai le! gong xi fa cai! These greetings seem to resonate in my mind so very often during this period of time. But still, i love this festival a lot as i enjoy the festive atmosphere, goodies and of course meeting old/forgotten pals/relatives. CnY is e best time to catch up wif my family members n its esp so when we seldom meet up during the yr, except for my ahma's bday n perhaps my ahgong's death anniv. Hence, i treasure CnY a lot n feel dat as one grows older, we all shld learn to accept n respect each other, esp e older generation, e uncles/aunties.

Reunion Dinner-

The most impt n crucial dinner every chinese shld attend wif their family be4 welcomin e new yr! E usual stuff were ard.. abalone.. chicken.. pork.. chinese soups.. noodles.. haha.. how i love these food! We at most get to eat em once a yr n am glad dat i aint missin out in action! hehe.. Even my uncle (who seldom come for gatherings) came n ate tgt wif us. Amazed to c how fast my younger cousins r growing// I admit, they do know more stuff compared to our times when we were 6 or 7. Whose responsibility? - its e world-renowed n successful education system in sg dat churns out students who knows everything from e book , but none frm e world, nature, mother earth. aM realli glad to be out of e dull n tedious classroom environment where e teacher comes in, talks a little n scrams. dat nite, we chatted a lot abt our ongoing issues in our lives and e difficulties copin for e O's n A's (pukes, hate em so much!). oh ya, we practised calligraphy(thanks to my aunt who bought e paints n red papers) ! didnt even touch e brush lolz(but no one knows!) haa.. cos i totally forgotten how to write chinese characters properly.. all e proper techniques of writing seem so foreign to me.. but this shldnt be e case ! i aim to get my chinese right be4 entering uni, can't afford to lose to those CHiinnnnnna students who come to sg to study n go back china. ha..

new yr days 1 n 2-

visited my maternal grandmother's house in e morn. This place houses lots of memories for me. I remember this's e place where me n my brother wld play catchin.. blind mice wif my elder cousins.. In primary sch, there was once i stayed for abt 2 wks or so as i didnt realli have a place to go cos of some problems i think. e trains .. railway station is e icon for this estate. aft dat, went to another relative's place. can't believe at e rate dat mi n my cousins were eating. we simply ate ate ate.. bak kuas, tarts, sweets, chocos! haa.. when e stomach is full, e body tends to feel lethargic, sleepy.. yepz.. so there we were.. lying on e sofas.. sleepin .. like pigs.. haa.. We made a mess in e dining area yet we were all slpping, leaving all e work to e poor maid. In e evenin, we went back to my house n begin to play poker. Quite exciting since its ur own money dat's lyin on e table. my luck aint realli gd n lost several rds. my gu zhang so damn pro. For him, its either a blackjack or a below 21 most of e time! well, its merely a game n i play for e fun of it .

Next day, it was visitin to my parents' colleagues house. wahh.. amazed.. some ppl could marry young at 26 n own a condo so fastt!! haa.. how i wish i could be like em , so fortunate. Married, gd standard of living, well-paid jobs, thoughtful parents, caring spouse, wad else can one ask for? yepz.. chatted wif some frens i haven met since last yr cny. ha.. we looked blankly at each other n thot.... we all need something to bring back e good o'times.. n dat was to gamble again..lolz.. i gotta stop, i told myself but this's e festive season n well, its e only time when we can realli play to our hearts' content. Left ard evenin t o watch 'i not stupid too!' wif my whole family! haa.. can u imagine, 24 ticket stubs rollin out of my uncle's pockets! total bill : $240 but my uncles were realli generous to pick up e tab n treat all of us, from e youngest to e oldest. Its been a while since we all went out (not as cousins alone) but tgt wif parents.. e last time i remembered was abt 8 yrs ago ba.. when we all went tgt up a nearby hill to play wif lanterns! The feelin of sittin tgt in e cinema hall as one family is sentimental to me as it brings back fond memories when were little kids, playin hopskotch, silly games n often gg up to e ponds to feed e dying fish. Well, ppl do grow up n its by constant communication/trust can one family gel tgt . e movie's plot is quite in sync wif how a typical singaporean family is like . Less face-to face communication bet kids n their parents due to work commitments, n also money issues dat bugs e younger generation these days. Also, public caning- for e kid's benefit or not? In my opinion, if i were to become a teacher next time, my rule would be to cane- e rod doesn't spare a rotten kid. In general, kids nowadays behave rather badly compared to in e past. ask ur daddy/mommy, would he/she talk back rudely to e teacher if they didnt hand up their sch work? or for dat matter, would ur daddy/mommy even DAre not to hand up their homework? well, society changes n its up to the authoritarians to take charge so dat it wun become a problem for future generations. I am not a MOE believer but still, they have e capability n time(unlike modern working parents) to bring up a kid properly. yepz.. a movie wif not much twists but stuff dat u can expect easily. happy new yr to all!

festive season!

2006-01-27T13:38:00.000+08:00

jUs bOoked out frm camp n felt so lethargic. Gotta feel pumped up again! Its e time to receive hongbaos n get fat again! As one gets older, e feelings we have towards Chinese new yr usually changes/matures. During house visits to relatives/friends, its no longer e usual qns like ‘ how do u score for ur exams?’ or ‘ wad jc u going to?’ but instead qns like ‘ when’re u bringin ur wife home??’ or ‘ where’s ur galfriend?’ dat becomes more prevalent among guys my age. Well, personally, I dun really find it irritating but actually proud dat I am seen to others as a mature young man! Haha.

This yr, camp celebrations were kinda bored n lifeless unlike last yr. Last yr, maybe cos of more ppl in camp, e celebrations were held on a larger scale. I could still remember how we betted on blackjack, daidee.. in a mini ‘casino’ n how desperate we were tryin to hit the bingo. gOod o’times. I feel dat I am really ‘privileged’ to spend cny, xmas, vday in camp. Yeah rite. This yr would be my last. I can vouch for dat. In camp dis wk, I was given a piece of rather shockin news. I’ve to go tekong to help in e stuff over dere. For a WEEK. Frm e 13 to 18 Feb. Upon hearing dat, I felt so sad n demoralised! I am so near e end of my nsf liability n yet this has to happen to mi onli. Moreover, 14feb is vday n well, its jus so depressing. Accompanied wif e trees, insects, wild animals outfield, how romantic is dat! Also, this ends on sat nite. How wonderful. My weekend is burnt as well. Its has been ages since I last went outfield n its time to adapt back to dat environment for a week or so. I gladly accept this new task assigned to me wif open arms. I look forward to crossing dis hurdle be4 I can actually ord peacefully...

As for now, i am still thinkin abt e best soln to solve e prob. fine. i am tired of findin out who he or she is . I jus hope dat dis person could be more brave next time, instead of acting like a coward, doin childish stuff dat irks ppl.

2006-01-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

got home late on sat nite. Felt satisfied in buyin a pair of dark colored jeans for Cny. everythin seems normal when i got home till my parents suddenly sat me down n began to ask me qns. qNs dat dun seem related or even logical to me. Qns dat make me DAMN FUCKING shocked n angry at e lies/stories being told to em. Nevertheless, i had to defend myself. wad's said was totally not true n baseless. I was desperate to find a solution to remedy e problem. Up till now, i couldnt think of any. Whenever i think of this, i feel so so piSsed n frusturated. Who e heck 'ld actually do this to me?? Well, personally, i feel dat i am quite a pleasant person to get along with. Right now in my mind, i couldnt think of any enemies dat i even have! Throughout my sec sch days till army now, even if i have offended ppl slightly, they were minor mistakes n i do apologise aft all dat. I thought a lot e whole night yest. Did i offend anyone unintentionally? If i did, i shall apologise to u now. I am sorry. The things u have done to me totally blows my mind away till e extent dat i'm not willin to tell anyone abt wad happened. Although i know dat its not true at all, its veri embarrassing. I feel so angry yet powerless to do anything to solve the problem. Why r there ppl like dat in e world? I deduced dat this person is a close friend of mine, a friend who knows everything abt me, yet betrayed me. I realised suddenly dat i shouldnt let my guard down n trust anyone, not even my closest buddies . my dad warned me to be on my guard in wadeva i do frm now on. I promised to listen to him. he's right. NV trust ur frens. even e ones closest to u. E ones dat u can put ur trust on r ur family ppl.. e ones dat r related to u by blood. yest's revelation abt e whole thingy lingers on my mind still. I am still wondering abt e appoporiate actions dat i shld take. I prayed hard abt it n hope dat e whole truth will come to light one day.

2006-01-21T13:20:00.000+08:00

This week in camp, there was an inspection of e work n logistic stuff we have done over e past yr. It was stressful indeed as i thot about e stuff dat i've handled n overcome over this past yr. Deprivation of sleep, no offs, always lotsa stuff to do... all in e past la.. Thursday was D-Day. Mi,yj n cW were all rather delighted dat after todae, there'ld be no more shit for us anymore! i hope. anyway, e inspectors came n did e necessary checks. We were sort of given an 'oral examination' abt e work we did over last yr. how funny. I am glad dat i was able to wayang all e way n impress e inspectors with e errorless/perfect answers we give. haha. How nice it is to lie for a reason n it was to gain 'off's for my orD! well, feel glad dat my superiors were rather pleased with our performance. :p

The next step for me dat would be crucial is e relievin of my duties n passin it on to e next batch of hardworkin, dilligent ppl.haha. I have a month or so to train em well n ensure dat everythin goes on smoothly after i hand over. as for now, gotta think hard abt e stuff dat i wana do during e period frm april to july. job? overseas vacation? relief teacher? i am still sourcing em out. well, if any of u guys got any intro for tuition/pt jobs, pls dun hesitate to drop me a msg.. haa..

bliSsss

2006-01-13T18:19:00.000+08:00

wonderful! I've jus received my Jan pAy. It's double of wad i usually get.. i realised. This's because I was upgraded to a combat vocation in early dec..which hence causes e backpay.. +combat allowance! so so blessed.. But i guess i wun raelli spend much of it, unless its onli on myself! haha.. Well, maybe cos i've realli recovered frm my knee op last yr, which causes this outcome.. haa..well.. dun realli care abt it as long as i am able to ord properly n peacefully!

This wk in camp, I've been thinkin a lot in all arenas of my Life. Spent quite a lot of my nights chattin wif frens,.Whenever I commmunicate wif em , sometimes i FEel e urge to invite em to church or even tell em more abt e bible. I feel dat this's a positive sign frm God n i shld continue to spread e gospel message. Although some ppl may laugh it off saying ' I Dun believe dat there 's a GOD up dere' , ' Being a Christian onli restricts ur 'party' lifestyle' ,but i feel dat one day i'ld be able to convince em eventually. I admit dat i'm not TOTAlly a PURE person YET.. SO GODLY, SO HOly,no sins! But Still , I am makin an effort to do e RIGHt Stuff, say the Approporiate stuff at the right time. No one is born perfect in this world n its onli thru problems n tribulations, dat one is able to mature emotionally. . yeapz. . prayin for increased growth in my walk wif God.

great!

2006-01-07T11:33:00.000+08:00

yeas.. I jus confirmed my tuition student for dis yr le! another source of income for me! yepz.. but i am afraid dat i'ld be quite busy during weekends le.. Not realli a choice for me. It's either sacrifice or no cash. Our life is kinda materialistic n realistic at times n i admit mine is like dat too.. xoxoxo

lalala

2006-01-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

jus received a call frm NUS Office of Admissions. I have to confirm my rejection to NIE's offer realli soon or else my place @ NUS would be forfeited. yep. I have alreadi made up my mind. I Have decided not to go into teaching so early but to arm myself wif a degree first be4 thinkin abt wad's next for me.. yepz.. :p

stone.stone.stone.

2006-01-06T19:53:00.000+08:00

arrrg. this week is so busy for mi.basically, my workstuff in e army is gonna be scrutinised real hard. An inspection comin up for me n my freedom/happiness/ord mood will depend a lot on it. oh man. its a torture for me to be doin all this work like a damn pathetic underpaid slave. still dun understand y some ppl could actually sign on to e SAF. In my opinion, e SAF is e worst employment organisation in e entire civil workforce.Little welfare, low pay n perhaps not much plannin-aheads too. Oh well, i wun be dat silly to sign on to my vocation.

As for tomorrow... i am still takin my driving lessons.. (8th one alreadi!) n going for service in e evening. Heard dat e speaker tomorrow is a one of e most renowed, famous speakers in e USA. yepz.. sleeppyyy...

back to worK!

2006-01-03T11:05:00.000+08:00

yepz. dis is e start of e new yr. fresh start. new problems. more work i expect.. may this week be a gd one for me!

new yr's thoughts n feelings..

2006-01-01T19:25:00.000+08:00

Hi all! Well, really glad that 2005 went past jus in a flash. Memories of last yr’s events still linger in my mind, be it unhappy stuff or wonderful events. I spent most of my time last yr serving national service which I dare proudly say has been a rather easy-going n smooth-sailing one. Compared to my other compatriots in e same line, I do feel sorry for em, having to skip weekends or gg overseas so veri often. As I am nearing my last phase of my entire NSF liability ( 090406!), I have so much to give thanks for to my LORD for guiding me thru this 2 yrs of my life. Although difficulties have come my way so veri often, I am really happy that I’m still optimistic, not fallen back but lookin ahead!

I gotta leave my past behind n dun think so much abt em anymore, be it in relationships , past failures or ‘evil deeds’ committed. I am proud to say dat my bad temper has subsided significantly, compared to e past few yrs. I prayed abt it be4 (regularly too) n it seemed to have worked for me! Many thanks to my fren, CH for bringing me to church during last yr june n allowin me to know more abt Christianity. I know some concerned friends of mine often commented dat I am not open enough… dun wana share at times.. or even too secretive..BUT I feel dat this’s e way I am n is one unique aspect of my character. All of us r born with different faces, thumbprints n needless to say, r different in our own style, be it in e way we walk, write, our intelligence level, talents.. n so on..

In yr 2006, i am lookin forward to study in nUs n can't wait for e things they have to offer! Orientation camps.. CCass.. cool buildings.. babes galore.. .. haha.. n of course e subject i am taking. Besides dat, i aim to get my qualified driving license soon.. n also start work on some decent, well paid part time jobs..

Yesterday's service was really gd n well-focused. Although e sermon was short, it manages to hit e bull’e eye in many ppl’s hearts, including mine. Never look back at ur past defeats, quarrels n sins committed. Also, wad’s even more impt is dat we shld not rest on our old laurels. We shld continually look forward n expect a better tomorrow even wif e unknowns hanging in e air. yepz.. may yr 2006 be a wonderful, fantastic n extraordinary yr for me! Weeee.. I love fireworks.. bright shining sparks in e air..

fat's e word..

2005-12-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

shop, walk, eat.. arrrgg.. no more jap buffets for me! sick of em.. hehe..

2005-12-29T12:43:00.000+08:00

hAd a great time wif my cousins on tue(27/12) as its been a while since we last went out together. oh man. can't believe time realli flies. A few moments ago, we were like little kids playin by e pond, catch.. and now we are all kinda 'grown up', equipped wif high-tech/flashy gadgets, handbags n clothes in sync wif fashion. ladies in general , regardless of wad age u r, simply loves to shop, n as a matter of fact, much more den us men. I myself a shopholic had to wait patiently for em to finish their bargains n purchasE.. ido have good patience. heez. aft dat, went to kuishin.bo to have dinner. its a pleasant restaurant , nice ambience wif a little jap music in e background. However, its so so ex.. 31++ for adult huh.. well, maybe cos its a buffet//. Personally, i wun realli pay dat high amt of money jus to fill my stomach. glad dat my cousin's generous enough to treat 1/3 of e meal! hehe.. didnt knoe dat nurses-in-trainin do earn quite a substantial amt monthly.. haha.. yep.. n watched The Promise aft dat. Absolutely full of crap. dat movie. well, some movies like chan's The Myth r great wif e kungfu fightings tinged wif a little romance. But this movie e promise definitely did not bring out e romance part well.Plus, e plot n endin r kinda messy. yepz.. n had a gd slp aft dat.. dreamin dreamin..

final touches..

2005-12-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

a word of thanks to my fren, kavan for helpin me wif e tags n stuff.. wow.. i regretted not doin computing in e past man.. haha..
anyway, dis yr christmas was realli memorable. Dis's e first time i spent it in church, and not anywhere else unlike gg to a pub last yr. am glad dat our church's move to expo proved to be a pretty successful one. a 6000 seater hall , full air con blast, great sound system, wad more can we ask for ? thank god for e hall! E service was realli touching n significant, makes me ponder on e whole purpose of xmas. Absolutely not e lightup n shoppin in town for sure but the birth of our LORD jesus christ. liked e cards n stuff dat ppl gave me, thanks. Aft dat, was e xmas carnival cum funfair. reminds me of a indoor pasar malam. cool huh. well, jus kinda disappointed dat a fren of mine actually overslept n did not turn up wif me for e service but i feel dat he will be saved veri soon! yepz.. in e evening, went for a xmas party. ate A LOT . definitely gained at least .5 kg yest nite! lolz.. had another xchange gifts session n got a pretty useless junk "p
yippez.. gettin out of army realli soon.. by dec31st, i'ld have left 99 days ! can't wait.

first post!

2005-12-26T16:20:00.000+08:00

am realli glad dat a computer-illiterate like me is able to set up a blog! anyway, its so simple! well, initially, i had some negative n dumb comments abt those who owned a blog.. things like oh how stupid can one get.. who would actually read ur blog when there r actually millions of em out there.. n wad's so gd abt u that ppl wana know.. not by e net of course.. guess dat i changed my mind. yippz. a blog is like a mini diary, jus for u n urself onli, personal stuff, something dat u can keep writin (or typing) to till forever.. but of course, frens r invited too. haa. maybe it's becos i am too freeee ba.. too much time to spend.. well. lets' hope dis little routine of mine would last! meoWz